Other Worldly
I was born into generational alcoholism in 1977, as the first born daughter to my parents, Doug and Sue Matz. My parents were adult children of alcoholics, not drinking but showing antisocial behaviors that were alcoholic. It's hard to explain it if you've never had to deal with it before. But my parents did not drink. Their parents did and so on. I believe incest and severe trauma was handed down, generation to generation. It wasn't stopped with my parents because although they were religious, they lacked in tact, self discipline, clear thinking and laundry list. This was what I had to fully concede to as a child. Being taught to keep secrets, etc and getting my soul raped daily because of the serious boundary issues. Depression came early for me and by the time I was five I hated myself and wanted to kill myself. This was also due to the fact that I was pinned by a car at two years old and then left in the ER alone after such a traumatic situation occurred. I believe th