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My top 80's song Crushes and your Complete Guide to Recovery

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If you are thinking you want to stop using, but can't seem to make the change, here are some pointers that I've learned throughout my lifetime. 1. Find a medical detox you can go to. These places will separate you from the drugs/alcohol, using medications for a safe way to stop. At the detox, you will sleep and eat, while you detox from use. Look at this time as your beginning to heal and be aligned with your sober ideals, what you want for yourself. Or it can be a time to mourn, letting go of this the lifestyle and the high is hard to swallow for some people. Any way you look at it we all need to focus on our life goals and be free to do so. https://www.centralcityconcern.org/services/health-recovery/hooper-detoxification-center/ https://depaultreatmentcenters.org/programs/adults/detox/ 2.Go get tested. Wherever you are in your disease, you should always get a work up at the Doctors or local clinic. Blood work for STD, HEP C, and HIV testing is your responsibility a

"Lifeless Dead" A Series on the "Politics" of Narcissism

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HLRBdr1HZfQ   Mad Season,"I'm Above" So just this very last week, I had two encounters with people I believe to be narcissistic. It has been awhile since I've been aware of and connected to it. Presently, I am to routinely coordinate events with individual #1. It was sudden and I didn't feel ready for it but had to do the deal. The Stress was closing in on me as soon as I talked to him. So I quickly changed my game plans and kept it simple. My part is my focus and I get it handled, that's it. It helps to keep our business minimal for me, thus less stress I'm feeling good about it. My other encounter was with someone I was interested romantically in. We seemed to connect with an 'old soul' vibe. I thought he had really good boundaries and was verbally blessed. The way he was assertive/aggressive about his "boundaries" was something I admired. He was helpful with issues that needed my firm

Trigger Happy

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Wayne Static of Static X Sometimes I come across a new song that I like, which helps distract me from urges or cravings. I love listening to my new "song" over and over again, until I'm satisfied and the cravings are gone. I'm good! I move on to my next song crush.. My cravings can be strong sometimes, and although It seems unconventional, metal music has a "punch to my psyche" that draws my attention. The loud powerful music distracts me. Then my urges go away and I feel good because..HEY! ANOTHER BATTLE WON!!  Its funny.. . I like this song a lot but don't understand what it means. It resonates with me and I don't know why. Latest "song crush", By Static X, the song "Ostegolation" from,  Wisconsin Death Trap : )  Maybe it resonates with you.. Otsegolation https:// youtu.be/uvj64IaW4JY   ngwriters: Antonio Campos / Kenneth Lacey / Kenneth Jay Lacey / Koichi Fukuda / Wayne Wells / Wayne R. (not Static

The Dancer and Essential Tune

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My Curse  by Killswitch Engage https://youtu.be/NUDls2PgDUY My Lucid dream as depicted below with my emo language.. meant to be expressive and stark. This poem kept swirling around inside me, for days and then I really looked through the glass and saw my path...  Relieving stressful emotions through poetry or expression is my number one coping technique. Do you have expressive coping techniques that work for you? The "Dancer" WE ARE Dancing..and.. Dancing... and Dancing... Under the Starrrrrssss ~Enwrapped~ All I  see  are  stars as I am looking for my partner's face..  which is lost in the  darkness I can FEEL Him....  and.. I know Him. He knows me We've been here before.. . We  LOVE  the dance We are  Intoxicated by  OUR  Dance Moving Twirling  With embraced  hands moving fiercely about Surrendered to the beat Falling  Deeper  and  Deeper Into our Salient emotion  Embracing..  L

Capricorn SLAVERY

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https://youtu.be/B9dSYgd5Elk MGMT.. Time to Pretend.. my Audio Support I'm another year older and celebrating my life's journey this last year. 2017 really  was  "my year"  where I broke through difficult personal barriers that don't work for me.  Meeting my doctor and finding another solution has been a blessing. I know that my God is in 'the details" and  I thank Him. Making and keeping goals as well as creating a blog had been on my mind for awhile. So, I began working on my planning early last year.  My intention was to discover "how" to plan and go from there. I read up on it and eventually, found my way to where I wanted to be. At the helm of my "ship" maneuvering through the waters of my mind. Let's get to the root cause of things! I'm convinced that the way I talk to myself is the "root" cause of all my pain. A life with a bigger "voice" during stressful moments is the "proj

Omission Heals Our Deepest Wounds

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youtu.be/iyu04pqC8lE   my Song selection for this Post.. Have you ever felt like an underachiever? It reminds me of how I am feeling when I take this step usually. Being in and out of recovery, I have found that the hardest step is the first step, as I am usually doing this one from the bottom of a run. It is the hardest but the most beautiful step, beautiful because my  heart  surrenders to positive possibilities, letting go of our dark  (control) and stay in the light (Faith)  where the healing immediately begins. Admitting my powerlessness relieves me of the mechanism that is addiction by not using. It is a law of the Universe, that if I stop hurting myself I am immediately healing. I have felt that " healing"  start every time I take Step One. I let go of the habit and I'm no longer blocking the eternal light by 'my using's ' darkness. The very MOMENT I surrender is also the same moment I'm in the right mind and on the correct path that will ev