Clay Tabernacles

1. God wants you at church. It feels good to reach for something higher. Being obedient to Gods Laws releases pent-up tension and fear. Going to church may sound crummy at first, but it will become delightful to you.  2. People need you. There are many ways to be of love and service. Finding people to serve, is easy at church and can be fun. When you use your imagination and the spirit, getting to know church members is fun. 3. You can be of service. Similar to the last reason, but this one is strictly about service work. That could be many things, like a personal change for the better. Taking care of ourselves helps us to care for others and is a service to mankind. 4. It's a safe place. No matter what church you go to, the place of worship is a place of good things. Great memories, good thoughts, righteous intentions. It is safer than other places when it comes to fighting the darkness. 5. The Events and Activities. If you are coming back into the ch...

In light of Mental Health awareness month: Bravo.. Clap clap clap. They just built an emergency clinic for mental health care in Portland. I wish they had built this in my 20's.. 5050 NE Hoyt crushed me, as an addict with mental health issues. In 2006 I was suffering the end of a 'run'. I was without sleep or my medications. I felt super depressed and beaten up.  My Dad threatened to call my bench probation judge so I promised him I would go to the ER. I didn't want my insobriety being exposed after getting my second DUII in ten years. It had stiffer penalties and was painful to endure. There was too much to sacrifice. I needed my freedom and comfort and would like to be "off paper". My angle to go into the ER seemed to appease my Dad, and after I had choked out my suicidal intention to the front desk, I was left in a room with my family for hours, before actually being seen. Mentally compromised, my mind was bleak from using, and my soul felt overshadow...

TRULY, AND GENEROUSLY, the General Women Session for the LDS and everyone else, was as expected.. Metaphysically ingratiating and lovingly quickening!! It stretched my spiritual, emotional, and mental selves noticeably. I usually don't talk about my distinctly LDS spiritual experience's, however, I haven't always been in the same place as I am now, which is WILLING AND FEELING personally equipped (sorta), in my desires to share such a treasure. Tonight has, by the CONCENTRATED-SPIRITUAL-BOOMS, the messages held.. CHANGED MY SPIRIT, in ways I COULDN'T SEE beforehand. It reinforced the gratitude, I felt preemptively, having motivated me through the adversary's attempts to distort my thoughts and feelings. Rightly, my gratitude has been giving me an open mind and heart. for hearing those messages. The same gratitude helped me, with my desires, drive and fortitude, to of overcome a private struggle and challenge, to focus in on the speaker. I'm getting the upper h...

 A song by Otep that describes my blog meaning pretty accurately. youtu.be/byoWMpHvtjE   A few months ago, I saw a national news station broadcast live footage of a jogger pushing a lady into traffic!! Luckily, the bus she would've been hit by, swerved around her head, barely missing her.  Then I watched a video of a policeman who had been shot by a kid. The news called him, the 'boy-with-a-cell-phone-to-his-ear' showing him on his phone repeatedly showing his poor choices. It was frightening and awful to witness.  It was too much. I had felt  personally violated.  What was this!? Really? Are you serious!? Live national news!!?? No way. I was baffled.. and embarrassed by what I had seen. Blackhearts? People with hearts are so murky, they can't see the most fundamental errors. They were already dead inside. Right? Is it natural to find devastatingly morbid footage, then peddle it like candy?  It reminds me of 9/11, and it's own video...

I Came Upon this Interview in a Strange Way.  I was looking for a certain 'sound', for this song called 'Hallelujah' by Leonard Cohen.. (I heard it on the Shrek soundtrack and loved it) I listened to 1 or 2 songs of Hallelujah by different artists, and then I found a video that knocked me down by its psychological beat. It was Chester from Linkin Park, and he was singing Hallelujah, like a Sonic BOOM!!!  (His vocals are rare and ethereal almost.) Coincidentally, he was singing for a friend, Chris Cornell's wake. I'm without words thinking about how extraordinary this is! Then I came across this raw footage of Chester in an interview. He was describing his monster to the world. Very straight to the point, and elegantly honest about his disposition. NEVER.. had I heard ANYONE famous say, that their mind was a 'bad neighborhood'! It was beyond ingratiating for me!!  Because of the way I have felt or feel at times, it was something I feel was mirrored by his...