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Wayne Static of Static X Sometimes I come across a new song that I like, which helps distract me from urges or cravings. I love listening to my new "song" over and over again, until I'm satisfied and the cravings are gone. I'm good! I move on to my next song crush.. My cravings can be strong sometimes, and although It seems unconventional, metal music has a "punch to my psyche" that draws my attention. The loud powerful music distracts me. Then my urges go away and I feel good because..HEY! ANOTHER BATTLE WON!!  Its funny.. . I like this song a lot but don't understand what it means. It resonates with me and I don't know why. Latest "song crush", By Static X, the song "Ostegolation" from,  Wisconsin Death Trap : )  Maybe it resonates with you.. Otsegolation https:// youtu.be/uvj64IaW4JY   ngwriters: Antonio Campos / Kenneth Lacey / Kenneth Jay Lacey / Koichi Fukuda / Wayne Wells / Wayne R. (not Static

My Curse  by Killswitch Engage https://youtu.be/NUDls2PgDUY My Lucid dream as depicted below with my emo language.. meant to be expressive and stark. This poem kept swirling around inside me, for days and then I really looked through the glass and saw my path...  Relieving stressful emotions through poetry or expression is my number one coping technique. Do you have expressive coping techniques that work for you? The "Dancer" WE ARE Dancing..and.. Dancing... and Dancing... Under the Starrrrrssss ~Enwrapped~ All I  see  are  stars as I am looking for my partner's face..  which is lost in the  darkness I can FEEL Him....  and.. I know Him. He knows me We've been here before.. . We  LOVE  the dance We are  Intoxicated by  OUR  Dance Moving Twirling  With embraced  hands moving fiercely about Surrendered to the beat Falling  Deeper  and  Deeper Into our Salient emotion  Embracing..  L

https://youtu.be/B9dSYgd5Elk MGMT.. Time to Pretend.. my Audio Support I'm another year older and celebrating my life's journey this last year. 2017 really  was  "my year"  where I broke through difficult personal barriers that don't work for me.  Meeting my doctor and finding another solution has been a blessing. I know that my God is in 'the details" and  I thank Him. Making and keeping goals as well as creating a blog had been on my mind for awhile. So, I began working on my planning early last year.  My intention was to discover "how" to plan and go from there. I read up on it and eventually, found my way to where I wanted to be. At the helm of my "ship" maneuvering through the waters of my mind. Let's get to the root cause of things! I'm convinced that the way I talk to myself is the "root" cause of all my pain. A life with a bigger "voice" during stressful moments is the "proj

youtu.be/iyu04pqC8lE   my Song selection for this Post.. Have you ever felt like an underachiever? It reminds me of how I am feeling when I take this step usually. Being in and out of recovery, I have found that the hardest step is the first step, as I am usually doing this one from the bottom of a run. It is the hardest but the most beautiful step, beautiful because my  heart  surrenders to positive possibilities, letting go of our dark  (control) and stay in the light (Faith)  where the healing immediately begins. Admitting my powerlessness relieves me of the mechanism that is addiction by not using. It is a law of the Universe, that if I stop hurting myself I am immediately healing. I have felt that " healing"  start every time I take Step One. I let go of the habit and I'm no longer blocking the eternal light by 'my using's ' darkness. The very MOMENT I surrender is also the same moment I'm in the right mind and on the correct path that will ev

If I was asked, "what are my real intentions and goals?" it wouldn't matter what I said. My heart is on my sleeve and so it's not a secret. My intentions are good!! However, I'm challenged by messages I hear about myself and others. Those messages are loud and I get confused about who I am. It's true, I can have uncomfortable times with my whole thought process.  However, coming back to my root goals makes me clear about my real intentions. My deepest goals are my spiritual ones for me and Jack. To  nurture his being into maturity with a light hand and a deeper faith is my ideal. That's something I've been working on and through for a while. I'm learning as I go on how to be nurturing or to nurture best. So, going to Parenting classes and taking a course on Theraplay was a good investment.  Using Theraplay, the mechanism is to announce what my child is doing. I then continue to narrate his actions and follow along with his activiti

                                                                                                                                                                                                          #4 Seasons by Chris Cornell tps:// youtu.be/TksqEIl1uxU   Feeling Word: Proud His awkward and shadowy smile made her think, "he is proud of me." Awakening Mindfulness: Putting Negative Self Talk to Sleep Cont. Paradoxically, this technique also sounds simple. It is, yet it isn’t. Trust me if that sounds like a Zen Koan to you, then you’re on the right track.  Rooted in Eastern religions the idea of self-awareness and non-judgment IS like a Zen koan. Merriam Web dictionary explains a koan as  “ a paradox to be meditated upon that is used to train Zen Buddhist monks to abandon ultimate dependence on reason and to force them into gaining sudden intuitive enlightenment”. Just like a koan, mindfulness are non-judgemental self awareness requi